Signs and visions have come to me throughout my life. I have not noticed them daily, although I am sure they are there. Mostly they have come through dreams, but they have also come through voices and visions during my waking life and also simply through the people I meet or the way certain things unfold throughout my day. I have always been open to these signs and ready to act upon the messages I receive (see my related blog posts here and here).
At the beginning of November, my baby hit 6 months old. Boy oh boy did that fly by! Prior to her birth my husband and I had discussed trying for baby number 2 in very quick succession. I have had some issues with my reproductive health so we thought it might be the best option (medically speaking) not to put another pregnancy off for too long. Motherhood is a funny thing though. It opens you in ways that years of practice had been unable to. My heart has never been so open and as I am running on intuition at all times, my Third Eye is of course, very open. This being the case, these past thoughts with a focus on western medicine and statistical practicality no longer seem like the correct path to follow.
In the lead up to the six month mark, three years started to play on my mind. This isn’t just about me anymore, I now have a little human to take into consideration. If I can give my little girl 3 years of breastfeeding, three years of being treated as the baby and nurtured as such before bringing another baby into the family I feel that my little girl will be able to make the transition from baby to big sister with greater awareness and with greater ease. No longer was I prepared to have two under two.
Five days ago, after sitting on these thoughts for a few days, I stopped at a service station for petrol after visiting a friend one hour’s drive away. The attendant complimented me on my beautiful baby and we started talking. She asked if bubba was my first, which she is (see my post on motherhood here), then out of the blue she told me that her daughter has two very close together. She then went on to say that although her daughter loves her children, in hindsight she thinks that a larger age gap would have been nice. She shared that her daughter thinks that three years would have been ideal so that she could really appreciate the infancy of baby no.1. What a sign! I thanked the lady and told her that we were obviously meant to meet as she has just given me confirmation. I know that following my instinct to leave a larger gap between my children is the right thing to do for our family.
I love how serendipitous my life is. So full of signs and connections. I am at peace that everything in my life is unfolding just as it should. In this life, I am blessed.